why? why? why?

i have this amazing boyfriend that i dont think i deserve. why? well i have no idea. i just, i feel like i'm not good enough for him. everyone says im wrong but i still feel that way. maybe its because i've been hurt so much in the past and i dont want to be hurt or to hurt anyone like that. i feel so great when im with him that im afraid that something is bound to go wrong. i just dont know how to let someone is so much without being afraid of getting it all thrown back in my face. i really wish that the last guy would have left me alone and not just strung me along. it killed me. and i dont know how to recover from it. i'm trying, and i'm trying my all to get past everything in the past and to open myself up to someone so great. i dont know how people can open up so easily? is it because they don't know the sting of pain, or is it because they forgive and forget and move on. maybe i'm overbearing it all. maybe i do just need to forget about the past and look towards my bright future. i might need sunglasses, the future's so bright.

boredness

so im bored. i should be cleaning, but i love to procrastinate. and im excited for tomorrow. bowling with Tom even tho i have only bowled twice and i suck lol. so anywayyyy im also blogging for honors comp at KU and i think you should check it out eng025.wordpress.com and yeah. im soo tired. working for hours on end sucks. and retail sucks twenty times that. but i still love my job, go figure. anyway wish me luck tomorrow!!

a mixture of five

Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
It's just another heartache on my list
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you
Must I always be waiting on you?
Must I always be playing your fool?
After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows youre wondering
If Im ok
That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is



purple-better than me-hinder
red-lonely no more-rob thomas
blue-sitting, waiting, wishing-jack johnson
orange-time after time-cyndi lauper
black-the way it is-bruce hornsby

my spin on the all american rejects

Damn BOY
Dry your eyes
You stole my heart and then you kicked it aside
No BOY
You can't see
When YOU'RE inside HER know there's no room for me

And I used to think that I was all you would need
And there you go again
Oooh you think that you could just push me around
Yeah and there you go again
You lift me up and then you throw me back down


much better now =)

germanyyyy

here in germany. just been chilling. it's kinda boring but relaxing. i needed a break from PA for sure. there's just so much crap going on there, it makes me sooo frustrated. thank god i'm starting college soon after i get back so i don't have to deal with all this drama and ugh it just, it makes me so mad. anyway i don't know what else to blog. i wish my mp3 player would charge already so i can tune out the world with music. alright ta ta for now!

germany

leaving for germany tonight. happy to leave all the drama in pennsylvania behind. i just wish all this drama would go away and it would just be fine, but i know now that it will never happen and it's not worth my time aka he's not worth my time. i am not happy sitting here waiting for him to come around. it's a waste of my life. nothing will ever come out of it and it will just piss me off more. maybe if he would realize that he always ends up hurting me. it doesnt matter what he tries to say to fix it, it never helps. and here i am, in the same damn spot as always. nothing is going to change so i'm moving on. changing my life. becoming who i am meant to be. whoever i may really be. i guess we'll find out how that goes. anyway. germany in 6 hours. haha. i will miss blogging for two weeks but when i get back, there will be a huge blog. ha. alright need to finish last minute stuff. byeeeee

maybe i'm amazed

"Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time
And hung me on a line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you......" -Paul McCartney

i can't believe i go from being so happy-go-lucky to being super upset to being so confused i feel like crying.
i know i love him
but i dont know how to trust him
i feel so happy when i'm with him
but i feel vulnerable when i'm not
i want to open up and just give him my heart
but i don't want it crushed.
i just wish it was simple.
which nothing is.
why can't it be is beyond me.
oh i just wish i knew what to do
=/

this is my life

Have you ever slept on the floor with someone you like
why would you sleep on the floor?
Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for?
yeah
Who is your last text from?
the boy =)
Which movie did you last see in theaters?
public enemies!
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yes i would and i want to
Are you crushing on someone?
its more than a crush
If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
no
Have you ever slept in the same bed with the last person you kissed?
nope but i wouldnt mind that
Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
maybe
Who's thinking about you right now?
dont know
Do you like to cuddle?
yepp
Are you keeping a secret right now?
kinda?
Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?
boy
What is your current annoyance?
this question
What do you want to do for a future career?
teacher
What do you current hear at the moment?
queen
Are you easily scared by horror movies?
eh sometimes
Do you know anyone who's been in jail?
nah
Does someone like you right now?
yep yep
Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriend/girlfriends?
i try not to be
Are you a risk taker?
depends
Are you anyone's first love?
idk
If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
spring
What was your worst mistake in your life?
i don;t know yet.
What's something you really want right now, be honest!
him with me =)
Have you ever woken up next to someone and were freaked out?
hahaha no
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with the letter A?
nope
Are you looking forward to anything?
Germany on wednesday!!
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
my boy
Plans for tomorrow?
sleep, work, see harry potter
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
duhhh
Is the last person you hugged older than you?
yeahh
Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?
maybe?
Have you ever cried during a movie?
yes
Are you comfortable with your height?
some days, others, i wish i was a little bit taller
Whats your favorite thing to eat?
food usually
Last text received?
"=)"
What is sitting next to you?
my phone
Do you have a bad temper?
i dont think so
Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
nope
Are you easily amused?
depends
Do you miss someone?
YES
Who was your last received call from?
dont know lol
Are you doing anything tonight?
nah its 10:30
Do you speak more than 6 languages?
who does?
Who else is in the room with you?
no oneeee
Do you think you will be married in 5 years?
maybe? we'll see
Do you watch MTV anymore?
not really
How do you feel about your hair?
it looks really good today
Do you sleep with a fan on?
nope
What is bothering you?
life in general lol

survey timee!!

decided to start doing my surveys on here now....

1. Where is your best friend right now? australia! best friend is in australia =(
2. Do you have dinner at a certain time every evening? haha what's dinner?
3. Would you ever work in a slaughter house? no
4. Who makes you the happiest? music and the guy i love
5. Is it just me, or does it seem like nowhere is hiring? seems it. thank god i have a job
6. Are you for gay rights? def
7. What did you do yesterday? was in dc all day with the family
8. Are there lots of teenagers in your town that are pregnant? in my town? not really
9. What's the next exciting thing that will happen in your life? dunno
10. Who is the first name in your contacts list in your phone? AIM
11. Did you know Bret Michaels and Pamela Anderson made a porno? no and i really didnt need to know that
12. Who is your favorite of the 3 chipmunks? idk lol
13. Do you watch Big Brother? nope
14. Is there anyone in your family you just can't stand? yes
15. Do you watch the Secret Life? yep yep
16. Would you look good with blonde hair? haha like a dark blonde sure but not bleach
17. What is the last movie you saw in theaters? public enemies!
18. Are you sick right now? nooo
19. Do you have your own room? yep
20. Can you describe the shirt your wearing? gray tee and green capris
21 Have you been kissed by someone who' s name starts with a J? yep
22 Have you ever regretted letting someone go? idk not really
23 Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yes
24 Does the last person you kissed mean anything to you? yeahhh. he means the world to me
25 What's the last thing that bothered you? when people can't spell
26 Did you run anywhere today? nope
27 Have you ever had pink eye? yes but a long time ago
28 What was the last song you listened to? you and me by lifehouse
29 How was your day overall? okayy i guess
30 Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a Q? i dont know anyone whose name starts with a Q so no
31 When was the last time you drank alcoholic substances? don't remember. a while ago
32 Will tomorrow be better then today? i'm hoping so
33 Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? yeah i do. it was over a year ago. lol
34 What's something you're excited for? GERMANY!!
35 Who were you with last night? the family, d, j, mom, dad, chloe
36 Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? probably
37 Do you know anyone who doesn't smoke pot? duh
38 Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months? i hope so
39 Has a guy other than family sat on your bed before? maybe?
40 Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? i hope he did
41 Are you listening to music? yeahhh
42 Think you will be in a relationship three months from now? maybe
43 Are you sober? duhh
44 Are you happier now or five months ago? now i think
45 What are you currently hearing right now? matchbox 20
46 Have you ever been nice to someone who treated you like crap? yeah
47 Do you think someone is thinking of you right now? i hope so
48 Who do you want to be your next kiss? my boy =)
49 Do you think you've ruined your chances with someone? i hope not
49 What was the most memorable thing that happened last summer? last summer, a lot happened, i cahnged a ton last summer
50 Are you a forgiving person? yeahh i am
51 Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight? dunno
52 Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life? hope i have
53 Do you think you’re a good friend? i try to be
54 Who was the last person you got into a big argument with? no clue
55. where is the person who has your heart? his house
56 Ever kissed someone who's name starts with an "A" or "S"? no actually
57 When's the last time you said you were okay, but really weren't? i dont remember
58 When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? haha thats an everyday thing
59 What did you do today? be lazy, slept til 11:30 then went swimming and tanning and now im online and i work at 5
60 The last person you kissed is? my boy
61 One fact about that person? he's my everything
62 Where were you half an hour ago? here
63 Anything you're giving up on? eh not at the moment
64 Are you one of those people who are always cold? yes
65 Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris? paris
66 Is anyone annoying you? not at the moment
67 What is the last drink you drank? water
68 Do you drink beer? nope
69 What is in your pocket? nothing
70 Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend? dont remember
71 What DVD is in your DVD player? not sure
72 What's something fun you did today? slept lol
73 Do you like pickles? yep
74 How about olives ? yes
75 What is a compliment you receive way too often? i dont get compliments often
76 What is your favorite song at the moment? oh god, idk, lol, i have wayyy too many
77 What song do you HATE? anything twangy country
78 Do you smoke crack everyday? well of course, psh, yeah right
79 Have you ever cried so much you threw up? dont think so
80 Do you ever use words like stoked, souped or sick? not really
81 What is your current mood? alright
82What's your favorite smell? anything good
83 If a blind woman/man started hitting on you, what would you do? probably laugh, why would blind people hit on a stranger they can't even see???

i can see paradise by the dashboard light

Ok, here we go, we got a real pressure cookergoing here, two down, nobody on, no score, bottom of the ninth, there's the wind-up andthere it is, a line shot up the middle, lookat him go. This boy can really fly!He's rounding first and really turning it onnow, he's not letting up at all, he's gonna try for second; the ball is bobbled out in center,and here comes the throw, and what a throw! He's gonna slide in head first, here he comes, he's out! No, wait, safe--safe at second base, this kid really makes things happen out there. Batter steps up to the plate, here's the pitch--he's going, and what a jump he's got, he's trying for third, here's the throw, it's in the dirt--safe at third! Holy cow, stolen base! He's taking a pretty big lead out there, almost daring him to try and pick him off. The pitcher glances over, winds up, and it's bunted, bunted down the third base line, the suicide squeeze in on! Here he comes, squeeze play, it's gonna be close, here's the throw, there's the play at the plate,holy cow, I think he's gonna make it!

STOP RIGHT THERE!

I gotta know right now.
Before we go any further
Do you love me?
Will you love me forever?
Do you need me?
Will you never leave me?
Will you make me so happy for the rest of my life?
Will you take me away and will you make me your wife?
I gotta know right now!
Before we go any further
Do you love me?
And will you love me forever? (Meat Loaf-Paradise by the Dashboard Light)

I gotta know right now
Do you love me???
Will you love me forever?

giving up

i've realized a lot.
some of these would be:

-i really don't have a ton of friends. there's dalavalaki, annie, grace, gina, but thats about it.

-i really love this guy but i can't trust him for the life of me and it's killing me.

-i'm excited to start a new chapter of my life at college. i can be who ever i want to be.

-i'm nervous and excited about germany. more excited but still kinda nervous.

-i wish i had something to do all summer. i get bored tanning for hours.

-nobody really loves me. they say they do but i don't feel it. i feel awfully alone.

-i blog way too much. it's become a great way for me to express myself, saying i am a writer and hope to be a better one.

-i listen to a ton of music. right now, my mp3 is on shuffle nonstop. i cant live without it right now.

-i'm a jealous person. i think everyone has those days where you're just jealous of everyone else. but there are days i just envy people to an extreme extent.

-i feel bad for cara, mady, hannah, leah, alexis, joel, collin, and aaden. jon and kate have taken control of their lives and put them on display for millions of people.

-i wish i was a little bit taller.

-i'm comfortable with my body, i dont need to be thinner, have huge boobs, have a plastic smile and great abs to be happy.

-people are mean. i understand jk-ing, but sometimes it goes too far and isn't really joking.

-AIM is an obsession. nobody ims me and yet i sit on it forever.

-i'm trying to figure out what happy is and how to achieve it. do i need money? love? god? who knows. i'll let you know when i find the meaning of life. k?

and last but not least, i have come to realize that life isn't perfect. there are ups and downs but that's what keeps you going, that's what keeps you trying, keeps you getting back up and trying again, keeps you from getting bored with life and giving it all up. i believe life is worth it and not worth giving up hope when you seem to be at the bottom of a pit. just keep digging, you'll eventually get to china.

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superman

"i can't stand to fly, i'm not that naive, i'm just out to find, the better part of me." (five for fighting)

for everything, there's an opposite but equal reaction.
basic science 101
it counts for everything in life
and its because of this:

"What's the problem I don't know. Well maybe I'm in love. Think about it every time I think about it. Can't stop thinking 'bout it. How much longer will it take to cure this? Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love. Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love." (counting crows)

im afraid of falling
im happy right now
and im afraid it might not last
is this the way most people feel?
or is it just me?
maybe its that i think way to damn much into things
i should just be happy and look at life positively
but I'm so pessimistic.
i never look at the bright side
no matter how hard i try to

"Man there's so many times. I don't know what I’m doin'. Like I don't know now..." (rob thomas)

music speaks. i just wish it told me the answers.....

music

music is my life
i know a lot of people say that
but i like to think of myself as one with music
it takes me away
makes me feel happy, sad, etc.
right now im in a rob thomas/matchbox 2o mood
i so love his songs
his voice is soothing
it makes me feel better no matter how bad im feeling
and no matter how good rob thomas makes me feel
i still have a decision to make
its so complicated
i need to sleep on it before i start blogging it. lol
so more tomorrow after working 8 hours.
text me please!!

crush?

"Why do I keep running from the truth,
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized,
And I just got to know
Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,
All that we can be, where this thing can go,
Am I crazy or falling in love,
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,
Are you holding back, like the way I do,
Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin’ away"


he's always on my mind. he doesn't go away
i try sooo hard to try to get over him but it hasn't happened
maybe it's because everytime i think i get him out of my system, he walks back into my life
it's just so hard.
i don't know what i want anymore.
and they way we go hot and cold so fast, it's bothersome
one minute we're close
and the next we're ignoring each other
i dont know what to even think of it
what are we?
i still don't know
it's sooo complex and i just wish it was simple.
that the answer would be there black and white
nothing complicated.
nothing difficult.
and yet that hasnt happened
and here i am blogging again about it
i just wish that someone would tell me what to do
the best person would definately be him
but im not sure if he really knows how much i hate being ignored
=/
life is hard, if it was easy it'd be called something else

to love or not to love is the question

if i tell him that i love him, will it get thrown in my face?
is that what this world is anymore?
you say how you feel and then you get it thrown in your face and realize that you never should have showed your feelings.
tell me how messed up that is.
but for my situation, he wants me to say it.
why can't he say it?
and why do i HAVE to say the L word?
how many times a day do you hear people just going, "oh i love you!" and they only met moments before.
kinda weird.
i'm the kind of girl who has never said i love you to a guy.
i say it to my friends all the time, because i love them like sisters
but i think when you fall in love, its different.
maybe it'll change my life.
maybe it won't
but i don't want to get it thrown in my face for showing weakness AKA emotion
HOW DARE I!!!!
am i supposed to be emotionless?
i'm not a robot.
i have feelings
and i dont want to get hurt
but i guess you can't get hurt if you never take the chance
my friend Lyssy said, "is he worth the wait and heartache"
and i said, "but if i don't take the chance, will i regret it?"
that's the way you should look at life
you'll miss 100% of the shots you never take
and if it doesn't work, you always walk away a stronger person.
so take the chance
=)

love

what is love?
everyone tells me i'll know when it happens.
apparently it hasn't happened yet, because i still don't know what it is.
and i won't just tell someone i love them
i want to know it's real before i say that

people just throw around that word.
no one really knows what it means anymore.
they just say it to make the other person happy.
i don't think that's right.
maybe i'm old fashioned in that thinking.
how dare i not want to say the L word without feeling it first.
oh well.
i just want to be loved for who i am and not be forced to say stuff i dont want to

oh man

what a week coming up

this weekend was okay. worked all weekend so nothing new

SUNDAY: work 9am-5:30 and pack

MONDAY: 8am- be at KU for overnighter

TUESDAY: KU til 5pm

WEDNESDAY: All Kids Can Walk in Trexlertown at 4

THURSDAY: work 5pm-10

FRIDAY: work 5pm-10

SATURDAY: work 9am-2

nothing planned on tuesday night, wednesday morning, thursday and friday day, or saturday night. seems i have a ton of free time. lol.

nothing to do for now. kinda bored. maybe i'll finish packing. never know. lol

beat that!!!

well today was effing awesome!!! first i slept in. then i was hanging with graceee which of course was crazy fun. then i ate, helped my mother with yard sale and finally, WATCHED THE PENGUINS WIN THE STANLEY CUP!!! talk about amazingggg. oh man. i dont think today could have gotten much better!! anywayyyy that was my awesome day. tomorrow should be not so good. i got to get up early to help with the yard sale and then i work 2-9. joy. texttt meee!!!

Chilling with grace for the

Chilling with grace for the day! It's fun!

hahahahhaha

i know what YOU did last night

well last night i was with lyssy. we chilled, talked, made another blog, were being idiots, etc, etc. then today we woke up, ate, took showers, went shopping, then took a nap. talk about lazy. lol. then work again. lol at least it was pay day yay. and now i;m bored. i need more friends or friends that stay up lol. more later!!!

life im general

well life seems to have flown by again. in three weeks, i've changed a lot. i'm now officially a senior at Fleetwood, and also a freshman at KU. pretty awesome. i've lost some friends, gained some, found a new person to lean on, and realized that life takes a lot of unexpected turns. i know i keep losing friends, but i don't know why. it's not like i ignore them, it's more of, i pissed them off once and now they refuse to look at me. i believe i have grown up enough to realize they are not worth the stress. why do i care so much what people always think of me? they're still going to think of me as they will.

smells like teen spirit!

"i feel stupid and contagious" oh man nirvana is totally an amazing band!! anywayy that was my random opinion of the day. i haven't been on in a while and a lot has happened. My world was turned upside down last night when i found out that someone knew something she shouldn't have found out. Yes i know what i did was wrong, but i don't see how it's completely my fault. oh well, whatever, nevermind.

School has 18 days left then i will be outta that rathole. thank god!!! hmm my weekend sucked. i worked all weekend, and yeah that's about it. tonight like everyone is at prom, i'm kinda glad i didn't go but maybe i missed out on a great time. tomorrow i work again, this time 9-5:30. joy. that's my life.

school and life

Happy tuesday!!! lmao. well i am wide awake and we have a sub for first period, thus i am not working on some dumbass project and have decided to rant on my blog instead. thank god the school is too dumb to block this site but they block half the google sites. wtf. anywho. i have pssa science testing next period. greattttt. yeah right. my life sucks. i dont remember the last time i blogged, but it was probably sometime in journalism. lol. anyway my weekend was blah. friday i had a movie night with peterson and lindsy, we watched the boy in the striped pajamas and slumdog millionaire. they were both amazing. then saturday i worked from 9 to 2. then my mother and i went to lehigh valley and went shopping =D that was fun. i got some cute new outfits. then sunday i worked 11-3 and after that i took a nap and went to target. lol. yeah that was my whole weekend. whatta sucky weekend, well besides shopping, that didn't suck. yesterday was monday. i hate mondays. we had our first day of testing yesterday which sucked. then i learned. joy. after school i did a lab then i drove lindsy, lexi, kinsey, and wayne home. full car. then i worked til 10. oh myyy. lol. that brings me to now. and now i'm effing bored. gah my life sucks. tonight, me and peterson are kidnapping lyssy if i don't die before then. and yeah. okayy well i think ima write my story since i still have a half hour to do whatever. lol. commentt!!!!

lawl

have you ever realized how many times in a day you hear the phrase lol? i mean it's become a word instead of an acronym. it's also a placeholder in a dead instant messaging convo. people say lol when they don't know what to say to a person. i know that's the way i use it. if someone says something and i have no idea what to say back but want the person to know i am still there i will just quickly type lol instead of finding something logical to type back. so anyway that's my opinion on life in the world of online chatting =D

DC

mann dc was madd fun!! i really didn't get much out of the museum saying i was in a concentration camp, but still, it had a lot of good info there. all i really remember is the bus ride homee. that was funny stuff there. anywayyyy.....right now my cat is going insane, nothing unusual but still equally annoying. work was blahh and school was fun. i had a great day actually but work made it go to blahhh. lol. oh well that's the way life is. i am supposed to be writing a health essay but obviously i am not lol. man i hate that class. who cares if i eat good or not? gah!
oh and nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah, BATMAN!!! lol journalism inside joke =D

oh man~

lots of stuff going on here, but none i can tell. lol. it's complicated. my cousin keeps telling me not to get hurt but i dont know if i really am thinking about that. idk. maybe i should listen to people and realize i have too much of a good thing and something will go wrong soon. but i dont know. my day was average. BUT i did go to lyssy's after school and had a boyer's run with linds. lol. lyssy's was fun. me. kins, lyssy, danielle, and alyssa. haha that just is trouble. lol. anywayy don't know if i'll get to blog tomorrow. i'll be in DC all day. hmm anyway i think that's my life. more to come soon!!

SHUT UP!! I'M BLOGGING!!!

ah ninth with Annie. it is superb. i have grown to love this class. with all its quirks and everything. today's class was amazing. lots of drama and homewrecking going on. i cannot explain it all because of the juiciness of it. (putting it mildly according to annie). i just wish, wish it would be different. maybe better different. i am so happy right now it should be illegal. lmao. btw i have learned how sexy lifeguards now. (haha inside joke)

i don't believe it

i haven't even posted a blog all weekend. that's what happens when you work i guess. a lot happened this weekend. mostly good. friday night was sonic and park city mall with the father and bros. then yesterday was sleep, walmart at 9 am, then i cleaned (sadly) and painted my toenails, they're bluee now, then i worked 2 til 9. nothing special. i chilled with liz, we were swamped in photo but oh well. then today i got up and worked 9 til 5:30. talk about a long day. oh and we had a bipolar lady come in and she was crying hysterically and such. talk about interesting. anywayy don't know what ima do the rest of the night. i hate sitting still. lol. more to probably come tomorrow in journalism lmao. yuck i dont want to go to school tomorrow. oh well that's life.

helloooooo i am lindsay lohan!!!

ahahahaha. i love jeff dunham. he is Hil-ar-ious!!! bahaha. anywhooo i'm in ninth period again and am trying to figure out my dilemma. what shall i do tonight? i don't work and i have no plans. this is like a first! =O anddd i dont know what else to say. today in school was maddd boring. first period, i read, second i learned and did my hw, third i watched i love lucy, fourth was more reading, fifth was chorus, so more reading, sixth was lunch with annie and kinseyy, seventh and eighth was lab and chem AND a fire drill. talk about exciting! lmao. my life must suck if i'm excited about going outside for even a fire drill. talk about pathetic. i wish school would be over and done with for ever and ever. Oh and i hope my journalism teacher would learn how to teach and be smart, and write. i mean seriously. she teaches writing and she cant write for shit. haha. anywayy that's my life. leave me a comment!!!

journalism mayham

AHH!!! i'm in journalism!! my blog works again!! i'm ecstatic!!! woot!!! hahahaha okay so this class sucks. we do nothing all period. gah. YAY no health tomorrow!!! yay lab!!! hahahaha we're going to watch water boil all period. joy to the world. anywayy school is almost over!!! twenty more minutes!! lol. buttt then i have to go to work. not wow. lmao. anyway i am discussing disgusting things with annie and jeremy right now because journalism sucks! haha. the rest of the day was boring, but i did get a chocolate milkshake in Kochanasz!! that was fun fun. and it tasted mad good. haha. anywayyyy i guess i should go. people don't like to read about my boring life. ta ta for now!!

truth be told

truth be told i miss you and truth be told I'm lying.
it all started with a boy. my best friend liked him. me and him started talking and he ending up asking me out. i, being gladly overjoyed, agreed. Then my best friend stopped talking to me. me and him broke up because of it. then she still wouldn't talk to me. next thing i know my other best friend stops talking to me because of her not talking to me. then another of my closest friends stops talking to me because of the second girl not talking to me. i mean wtf. all this because i said yes to one guy a month ago and we dated for a whole four days??? it just aggravates me. i wish it would all go back to the way it was, but that will never happen. i just give up. i don't need them.

ranting and raving

i just dont get it. why is life so complicated? why am i losing every friend i thought would always be there. it's not everyone of my friends, but most of them. then there's lindsy, who keeps me up and going when life brings me down. without her i don't know what i'd do =) her and gina. even though gina lives almost 4000 miles and an ocean away, she is always there for me. she's my sister almost. we've been through thick and thin and argue like no tomorrow. i love my two best friends, without them i would be nothing. okay well i am mad tired and as much as i'd like to fall asleep in school again, i need to work on my stat grade and pay attention. lol. night night!!

articleee

http://readingeagle.com/article.aspx?id=133636

my article link. it's ONLINE!! yay!!
lol. anywayyy. today was okay i guess. kinda boring. i did fall asleep in second period. lol. oops. and the rest of the day was slow and forgetful. all my days blend together anymore. after school me and lindsy did a mickyd's run to get snack wraps. man are we fattys. lol. more to come tomorrow morning around 7:30 again. lol. i love oblivious teachers!

job searchh

gah! i'm so bored in this class. i wish school was over.
i will probably be on here all the time in first period. i wanna get a different class! ta ta for now!

easter mondayyy

well today was grrrr-eat..... =/
woke up late this morning, 10ish. then went to my mom's store to get discounted easter candy, lol, then subway for lunch, then work 1-9:30. talk about a long day. work was uneventful. nothing worth noting.
tomorrow will suck. i'm starting to loath school. only 42 days left in that rat hole. listening to blame it on the alcohol, and starting to fall asleep. hopefully cool post to come tomorrow about my article on the front page of Voices. you'll have to wait til then.... =]

i wanna touch YOU!!

i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you
how sexual is that?
i mean seriously.
but i love it lol
it's the all american rejects and they are effing amazing

but my favorite song on their new cd would have to be:
damn girl dry your eyes you stole my heart and then you kicked it aside
no girl you can't see that when he's inside you there's no room for me

its actually very true. girls tend to do that and still want the ex to be there for them. It never works that way and i realized that a while ago, but i still would want that to be true.



looking for love in all the wrong places...........

easterrr

HAPPY JESUS HAS RISEN DAY!!!
haha it sounds wayy cooler than happy easter
today was funn
chilled with family and stuff
then i was chilling with lindsyy
we got rita's, went to walmart and chilled lol next was lake onteluenee and then my house
and that brings us to now
we is chillen and such
that be it!!