maybe i'm amazed

"Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time
And hung me on a line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you......" -Paul McCartney

i can't believe i go from being so happy-go-lucky to being super upset to being so confused i feel like crying.
i know i love him
but i dont know how to trust him
i feel so happy when i'm with him
but i feel vulnerable when i'm not
i want to open up and just give him my heart
but i don't want it crushed.
i just wish it was simple.
which nothing is.
why can't it be is beyond me.
oh i just wish i knew what to do
=/