germany

leaving for germany tonight. happy to leave all the drama in pennsylvania behind. i just wish all this drama would go away and it would just be fine, but i know now that it will never happen and it's not worth my time aka he's not worth my time. i am not happy sitting here waiting for him to come around. it's a waste of my life. nothing will ever come out of it and it will just piss me off more. maybe if he would realize that he always ends up hurting me. it doesnt matter what he tries to say to fix it, it never helps. and here i am, in the same damn spot as always. nothing is going to change so i'm moving on. changing my life. becoming who i am meant to be. whoever i may really be. i guess we'll find out how that goes. anyway. germany in 6 hours. haha. i will miss blogging for two weeks but when i get back, there will be a huge blog. ha. alright need to finish last minute stuff. byeeeee