crush?

"Why do I keep running from the truth,
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized,
And I just got to know
Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,
All that we can be, where this thing can go,
Am I crazy or falling in love,
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,
Are you holding back, like the way I do,
Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin’ away"


he's always on my mind. he doesn't go away
i try sooo hard to try to get over him but it hasn't happened
maybe it's because everytime i think i get him out of my system, he walks back into my life
it's just so hard.
i don't know what i want anymore.
and they way we go hot and cold so fast, it's bothersome
one minute we're close
and the next we're ignoring each other
i dont know what to even think of it
what are we?
i still don't know
it's sooo complex and i just wish it was simple.
that the answer would be there black and white
nothing complicated.
nothing difficult.
and yet that hasnt happened
and here i am blogging again about it
i just wish that someone would tell me what to do
the best person would definately be him
but im not sure if he really knows how much i hate being ignored
=/
life is hard, if it was easy it'd be called something else